You Look Like a Young Barbra Streisand

About five minutes ago, I got out of the shower.  About twenty minutes ago, I got into the shower full and baked, which was a pretty cool combination because I thought of myself as a pink manatee the moment I entered. (My shower curtain is pink and it turns the whole room pink.) I do much of my thinking in the shower, and I was thinking a lot about an in-depth conversation my roommate and I had about confidence, and being an actor. And I remembered that I had talked about secretly wanting to become a casting director.

I've always harbored a secret desire to become a casting director because let's face it, everyone would want the commercial/tv show/film to reflect the characters that they saw in their head when they read the script.  I always see the aformentioned television and I think, 'Wow I could have found someone way better to read those lines.' Bottom line is I think I'd be good at the job. Plus I have, I think, particularly good intuition about people, even if they're acting.

Anyway, so I'm in the shower, scrubbin my tush, thinking about this idea of becoming a casting director, and maybe interning with a casting director when I move to the big L.A. (it's like a bad word I guess; people don't really ever say it without spelling it out instead). Then, all of a sudden, a tragic reality strikes me like lightning::

what if ... the reason... I want to become a casting director.... .. ... is so that people will have to suck up to me?

.... .... ... . . ... . ... . . . . ...... what if that's all I've ever wanted to accomplish by being an actor, TOO ! ? ... . . . !!

::naked yoga

The Skin-ny

So I've been putting off advertising my blog on Facebook.




This is for a couple reasons.  One, I think there's a verrrry blurry line between good and bad facebook self-promotion. Two, I'm not sure if there's an unspoken thing about self-promoting multiple things, and I'd ideally like to spend my one token to promote myself as an actor, not as a blogger.

Buutttt ... I can also maybe turn my blog fan page into a Whitney fan page some day...

... Which would void the anonymity I'm sort of going with on this whole blog thing, where I can be myself but that's because nobody knows me, because I'm pretty sure there is about one person that reads my blog... (up until now, at least).  Plus there's that whole Big Brother complex I have.  And, honestly, I'm not very good at keeping up with things, so I'm afraid that once my life is more exciting I'll forget about it.  But ! At the same time, having "fans" will inspire me to keep writing, that is assuming that my facebook friends like this shit...

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I GOTTA DOLLA!

HEY HEY HEY HEY!

Well I finally took the plunge and posted the link to my blog on my Twitter.  This was really hard for me, first because I've never had a blog that was actually public, and second because I wondered what people would think, both about my writing and about the fact that I'm asking people for money.


BUT I GOT A DOLLARRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


My first buck came from none other than my friend Joe, who's an actor making it out in Chicago.  Look for big things from him, he's wonderfully talented (or at least he was back in college when I saw him four years ago in The Grapes of Wrath, so I can only assume he's freakin phenomenal now) !  Follow him on Twitter @JoeVonBokern .  Thanks so much Joe!

In honor of my rule that I haven't been following very well, I want to post a link to his fantastic blog, Playbills vs. Paying Bills, which you can visit at playbillsvspayingbills.com . He actually co-authors it with two other graduates from my college theatre program, all of whom are amazing, and each of which live in different cities: Chicago, New York, and Los Angeles.  All have great stories and (especially) information for actors looking to try their luck in one of the big U.S. cities.  Check them out!

this is shamelessly copied from my 'About (K)now (S)ubject' page

(K)now (S)ubject is a blog with no subject.

I tried for months to come up with a theme for the blog I knew I was

to write.

(I'm a little dramatic.)

Originally I was going to write a blog about my exploits in New York City.  But then I didn't move to New York City.  Then I was thinking I could somehow incorporate my love for ferris wheels into a whimsical little blog that dealt with the ferris wheel as a metaphor for life... blah blah peopledon'tcare blah.

But then I realized: I can't define my blog because I can't define myself.  I have no idea who I am, other than an actor with a passion for learning about people and looking at the world from their point of view.  I want to live a thousand different lives.  Thank gods I have a great imagination, because that's the only way I'm going to be able to live them all.

It’s been approximately 3 months since I moved out of my cushy messy college apartment in Boulder and moved in with my parents.  And I've simultaneously grown up and grown down, which just has to be a blessing in disguise, because they say that all you've ever needed to know you learned in Kindergarten, and while I completely agree, I feel like I'm about six years old again, and so far I'm still looking for that six-year-old sense of optimism and fearlessness about the future.  I'll keep you posted on that.

Although one of my goals in creating (K)now (S)ubject is to raise money to pay off my blasted student loans (see my Info on Donating to My College Fund page), I think that, even if I don't raise a cent, I feel like I have something to share with the world.  And despite the fact that I have no idea what that is, I've been yearning to start a blog for ages, and I've put it off long enough.  So although I don't know the subject of my own blog, I do know that I have the capacity to talk about hundreds of completely unrelated things... and I guess my goal has always been knowledge.

I want my blog to be more than just me talking at you and you listening.  One of the many reasons I love blogs is because they can be a work in progress - and mine certainly will be.  This is a blog for the readers, and I eventually hope that it will at least be partially by the readers.  I am on a constant quest to keep learning and growing, and what better way to do that than to hear and listen to my readers’ feedback... This is all assuming, of course, that I manage to find readers... And keep the conversation going!

And as part of my so-called mission, I also want to include a link and description of another blog that I like in EVERY post I make.  I have a lot of blogging friends, both literally and otherwise, and I'm really into paying it forward.

So, in my first order of business as the Queen of (K)now (S)ubject, I give you Karyn Bosnak's website and blog: 

http://www.prettyinthecity.com/

The source of my inspiration, reading her story and perusing her website (which is exactly my style, witty and funny and quirky all rolled into one woman who has no apologies and isn't afraid to be herself) gave me that final push to say, do it.  Start your blog.  Shit, maybe you'll make some money.  And if not?  At least you know you did it, even without a subject.